You are my sunshine

In Spencer's last minutes with us, I just held him on my chest and sang 'you are my sunshine'...

I adjusted the words to say 'you are my sunshine, one of my sunshines, you make me happy when skies are gray, you'll never know dear how much I love you...' I simply ended it there.

I knew asking him to stay was selfish, and impossible. Finishing the song with 'Please don't take my sunshine away' seemed pointless. By then he was practically gone. He was leaving us, and I couldn't finish anyway.

If I could have held him forever, I would have, but I couldn't. People say we were brave, but he was the brave one. He was the strong one. He was and will forever be my sunshine

I still sing that song...to Kenzie every night. It is the last song I sing to her before I put her to bed.

Every. Night.

But man if I don't say that last phrase with some serious emphasis!!

I also sing that song each night to Spencer. When I get myself ready for bed, I sing it one more time for him...but, I end it the same as I do for Kenzie.

'Please don't take my sunshine away....'